Thanksgiving day blahs

Today is thanksgiving day. It's a holiday of the US to celebrate their country's pilgrims' first dinner with the indians, or so my sweetie tells me. I'm not much into thanksgiving, but i greet the obligatory "happy thanksgiving" all the same ot those who are celebrating it today :-) For my significant other, it's a holiday and he has a date with friends tonight to have a buffet dinner at this really posh hotel. As for moi, I am "celebrating" it by checking out some really fab paintings at the exhibit opening in West Gallery.

Why are we not celebrating it together? Hmmm... well, for one, money reasons: the "buffet" costs Php875/pax --- for me, that's a big WTF!?! since A) i'm not a big fan of buffets (i can only eat twice at the most, so that'll be like, P400 per meal), B) most of the food will be stuff i can't eat (turkey, meats, etc.) and C) the tradition is something i have not grown up with, so it'll be kinda weird. Strangely, it may also be because of the secret reason D) i was not invited. :-P Suffice to say that i am a bit pissed. After all, thansgiving is not an everyday occurrence. But anyway, we hope to meet up after the said dinner.

Unfortunately, the planning was well, quite weird, to say the least. As much as he wants to meet up, he isn't sure at all. What does that say to me? My paranoia can't help but surface a bit, and i feel a bit dejected at the thought of him not making any effort at all to meet up. I keep asking myself if this was what i wanted, or is this just the way guys act. I kept reprimanding myself not to lose it or be too freaked out, after all, it's just dinner...

Perhaps it's not just that. He'll be leaving in a week for a month-long stay back home, and well, already i'm missing him. SUre, it's only a month, but who knows, right? Nowadays he acts distracted, and i can't help but feel that he can't wait to be rid of me (or something to that effect). I mean, it's getting to me sooo bad that even i think that i should just stop this right now and get out of his life, for both our sakes. *sigh* My paranoia kicks in overtime at times. But i can't shake that feeling off... I just hope it's all in my head.